Tuesday, March 29, 2016

positive vibes

Assalamualaikum :)

Actually, I decided to go sleep since tomorrow I have to go to work but I keep postpone for this post :D

Verse 1
Alhamdulillah,now I have been employed since 1 month I have been unemployed. Tuhan saja yang tahu macam mana nya rasa susah nak cari kerja with our economy condition nowadays. And I praised to Allah s.w.t because He give me a job which is can be suit with my soul and more related to my study background. All the circumstances that I have been through when Im seeking the job brings me to think that Allah is a good planner. And when you precise your dua', He will give you what do you needs but the time comes when you are ready. Since susah sangat nak cari keja haritu, so aku tak kisah la keja mana pun janji xnak tanam anggur. So dalam case ni aku ada la aim satu company ni,memang target nak dapat la sebab ada cable and aku tau keja kat situ agak teruk sikit tapi dalam kepala ni memang set xkisah la nak keja apa janji nak kumpul duit. Sampaikan dua kali pergi interview but still no respond. Then, tetiba dapat offer keja lain. So what I have learnt is when you precise something in your dua' for example " Ya Allah berikanlah aku pekerjaan yang SESUAI dgn aku". He will give it :) Alhamdulillah for my new job,a good environment which is I have a good boss that always support and encourage me but of course la all jobs have their own stress. Kat sini nak stress pun dengan customer saja as I am Customer Service Exec. This position teach me on how to communicate with people that many kind of behavior and the most important thing is you have to be super patient when dealing with people :) For me is you have to pick a good boss rather than you pick a job. " Don't pick a job but pick a boss. Your first boss is the biggest factor in your career success. A boss who doesn't trust you will not give you opportunities to grow." - William Raduchel

Verse 2
Last two days, I hang out with one of my matriculation mate. We are in same practicum during our first year program. And of course perempuan mesti la bila berjumpa tu nak bergossip and ada sedikit moment nak luah perasaan. hehe. So we shared our story. And she going to married soon! She gives a lots of advice to me regarding my major break down since she also have experienced same like me before. I remembered this sentences that she always repeat to me, " Shila,memang sakit bila ditinggalkan. Tambah2 bila kita tak tahu the exactly reason why they left us but percaya la one day bila someone yg Allah hantar untuk jodoh hg tu,hg akan rasa syukur and dari situ hg akan fikir kenapa hg xjadi dengan org sebelum ini. Memang susah nak move on,cakap memang senang even kadang2 bila ada someone approach hg,hg akan rasa yang lama tu adalah paling terbaik but percayalah once bila hg jumpa dgn jodoh hg tu hg akan rasa syukur." So lepas dengar dia bersyarah ni rasa ada semangat la balik and I want to focus on my career. Sebelum ni ada jgk usaha nk mencari tapi mungkin time tu aku buat keputusan cm tu sbb aku rasa terlalu sunyi kot,jumpa lelaki yang just nk fill their free time tu biasala kan. haha. okay dah no comment.  Well not everyone will have the heart you have. Not everyone will appreciate you and what you do for them. It won't be easy having a kind heart in a cruel world. Be prepared :)


Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Alan Walker - Faded

Where are you now

Where are you now

Where are you now

Was it all in my

Where are you now

Were you only

Monday, March 14, 2016

what do you mean?

What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
When you nod your head yes
But you wanna say no
What do you mean?
Hey yeah
When you don't want me to move
But you tell me to go
What do you mean?

( Pantai Sungai Lurus, Johor,2015)

p/s : moment 7 months ago

Friday, March 11, 2016

Must Fall in Love 3 times

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are,and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect,and that you should never treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are,and who you want to be.

And when you are through with all that,you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt,and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.
But most of all,you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined; it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person in this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.


Thursday, March 10, 2016

Yuna - Crush (Audio) ft. Usher

If you feel the same

I see it in the way that you behave around me

And I can’t tell what we have is different from anyone else

‘Cause you stop doing what you’re doing 

When I call you come to me running

And I would do the same for you 

So, tell me that you feel it too!

I feel a little rush,

I think I’ve got a little crush on you I hope it’s not too much

But babe when I’m with you,

I hear it 

My heart singing

 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la la La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la la

"You will fall in love with who you can't have"

" You will fall in love with who you can't have. You will fall in love with absences and void and token 'i miss you's which is hit so flat like broken notes from a weeping guitar. You will fall in love with distance and all the guilt in between. You will stop pursuing the sunsets from a rooftop. You will let love go. You will love letting go."


Sunday, March 6, 2016

Tundukkan Playboy Itu :p

Assalamualaikum and Hai :)

So currently,I'm still on tanam-anggur-yang-sangat-berjaya. Quiet boring but I can learn and do anything that I want. Basically, I just practiced and learnt on my cooking skills :D So far from my mum's comment was like 70% HAHA. 30% lagi tu biasa la time you take to complete your dishes and the taste. I just cook while my father was not around because he only want my mum punya masakan. Well,mum's cook is da BOOM!

Actually this post is not about cooking. As I mentioned just now,I can do whatever I want since I'm not working anymore. So I have lots of free time and sure I can focus on drama on the week days. Yeayy! Now, the malay drama on TV is " Tundukkan Playboy Itu". Even the title quite cliche' but nice to watch. Suddenly its remind me to my cousin,my uncle always nagging to him :

Uncle : "Duan ni banyak betol kawan perempuan dia. Sat bawak mai hat macam pramugari la, sat bawak mai cam anak mak arab la. Mana satu dia mau tak tau. Tapi satg nak kawen p cari anak dara hat kayuh beskat (basikal) mini dekat kampung."

"Tapi satg nak kawen p cari anak dara hat kayuh beskat (basikal) mini dekat kampung." ni memang bahahahaaha. Pandai acik buat ayat naa :p

So back to the topic,the malay drama. Nowadays, I noticed that the film's director want to show something like Islamic practices. It is a good idea and we also noticed that many artist/singer already wear hijab. Alhamdulillah even they wearing the hijab in style but at least they got 'hidayah' to wear it. Better late than never rite? So in this drama, the main character which is the heroin named Nurin was a girl that wearing hijab,good in her career and of cause beautiful! Last time episode showed that after they attend the meeting,there is someone Dato'-i-forgot-his-name want to shake hand with Nurin but she avoid it with smiled. Nice and polite action actually especially during that moment of cause we will feel like nervous and all those things rite. I know she is just berlakon jaa but what if happen to us mesti mcm eh aku nk salam ke tak eh,dah dia orang kenamaan and bla bla bla.

So in this post I would like to share my experienced. But firstly I want to say that Im not a perfect human,Im not have many religious knowledge even my parent had teach me but sometimes we as a teenagers not following 100% and sometimes there is moment that bring us to think all these things. Dulu waktu kecik-kecik kita dengan sepupu kita memang rapat kan tak kira lelaki mahupun perempuan,main sekali,makan sekali,mandi sekali. Bila sampai tahap remaja pun rapat jugak tapi xda la mandi sekali tu haa. haha. So bila hari raya ni macam tak ambik berat sangat bab-bab salam tangan ni. Sampai satu masa,my mom asked me not to shake hand with my cousins which is yang lelaki la and she also asked me to wear hijab during they was around. Honestly, I admit it is hard for me to practice it. Tetiba kau akan dengar ayat macam ni :

" Hang dah pasaipa nak pakai tudung tengah-tengah dok tengok TV ni?"

"Hang tak panaih ka dok pakai tudung ja dari tadi?"

" Kak shila botak eh dok pakai tudung jaa."

"Tak payah nak alim sangat la sepupu ja pun."

Okay. Do you know what i feel? I cried to my mom but she keep support me. And paling tak best bila hari raya nak salam. Kadang-kadang tu aku buat busy lari sana lari sini kononnya nak lari dari sepupu lelaki daripada bersalaman. Paling payah sepupu lelaki yang jauh tua dari hg,yg hg betol-betol hormat dia. And sometimes tengah dok cari jalan nak lari p mana tiba-tiba haa muncul depan-depan sambil sua tangan OMG nak buat apa ni? Nak cakap tak leh salam macam over plak. Hmm hmm nasib time tu pakai shawl agak labuh so I covered that shawl with my hands and shake hand with him but still I feel shy. I do know why even I practice a RIGHT doing/action in our religious. Macam-macam tomahan jugak la aku dapat dari sepupu aku tapi masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. And thanks to my mom la yang keep support me doing this. Sometimes bagi setengah orang nampak benda-benda camni mudah saja and sometimes jugak ada yang fikir tak alim mana pun tapi nak practice jugak. Yea I know I also not good in covering aurah,pakaian aku pun xda la muslimah mana pun as long as my parent allow me to wear it. Im still on learning and please for those yang tgk bila someone nak berubah ke arah lebih baik even it is just a little please do not condemn them. Do you know what they feel? I hope everyone in this world take a chance to be a better muslim :) Sometimes you faced difficulties not because you are doing wrong but because you are doing something RIGHT. Isn't?

There is something I would like to share here and also for me as well.

Friday, February 26, 2016

PETIT BISCUIT - Sunset Lover

p/s : thanks to someone that introduced me for this song. I keep repeat until no boring :D

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

The Believer

Today,things didn't seem to go according to my plan. And to be honest, I still don't understand why it happened the way it did. I do believe,however,as cliche as it may sound,that everything happens for a reason. And I am aware that sometimes,the reason doesn't instantly surface. In fact,sometimes it doesn't...at all. And THAT,is also for a reason. Most importantly,I must accept that things are happening exactly the way Allah wants it to be. Whether I like it or not,whether I understand it or not.

All is good for the believers. All is good for the believers. InsyaAllah.

p/s : my current situation


Kau tahu kenapa kau cepat bosan?
Kerana kau pilih dia guna wajah,
bukannya hati.
Sebab itu hati kau seakan mati.
Itu ini kau tidak akan pernah puas hati.

Kau tak tenteram.
Tidak akan pernah tenteram.
Kerana hati kau akan sering terusik,
pabila lihat yang lebih cantik.

Cuma satu,
yang luarnya cantik,
belum tentu dalam molek.
Manusia banyak topeng dan kadangnya licik.


Monday, February 8, 2016

"the one"

Assalamualaikum :)

I just watched anwarhadi's video about "the one". I like the ascent how he spoke in english. I wish I can :D Okay back to the topic. Someone just asked him how do you know she (your wife) is the one? From the point of view from him that, the relationship yg bila dua orang buat macam mana pun but still okay. For example,gaduh macam mana pun at the end back together. And yeah, I admit I also felt that thing before this. During that time I think he is the one because many thing happened but we still in a relationship. But I was wrong because one of us doesn't have an effort to get a better relationship,I mean married. So when we are in a relationship,we cant said he or she is the one for us until we are married. Actually we don't know who they are,sometimes we knew someone for 5 years and suddenly they can change automatically. Well, in a relationship sometime we have a pretended skill, haa cam na nak cakap ek. Contoh la, this girl pretend she not a jealous person,pretend she is the cool one but the true is cemburu gila babeng. Hmm cam tu la cerita dia. And yeah whatever things happen must be a reason. Sometimes we planned everything but not happen so maybe Allah S.W.T have something better for us. When Allah put test at us,baru kita lebih meluangkan masa kita dekatkan diri kita dengan-NYA. So for my past relationship,Im not pointing who was actually wrong. It just like I want to relate,me and who are not in a halal ralationship yet actually not have right said "he/she is the one". Last but not least, wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical,the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person,who will be your best friend,the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances.

Sunday, February 7, 2016


Assalamualaikum :)

Hello everyone. Everyone? No one? *okay*. So I haven't blogged such a long time. I mean a very very long time since I started working and yeah no extra time for this little diary AHHA!

2015 is a very tough year for me. Very tough. But 2015 ends just quick and i couldn't realize maybe so many things just happened :D And yes the past was hurt but the way i see it is learn from it. This is the year I become stronger,I also cant believe I can go through until this. And I must say YES to a new adventure! May this year filled with magic and dreams and good madness :)